2004-01-12 - 3:38 a.m.

Fuck this being fat shit. Hey, I know I am happier than hell right now...but I need ana back. Shes going to ruin me some day, but I despise being fat and disgusting. I seriously am. And it hurts. Please ana come back into my life and save me from eating everything in sight! Oh my God, i eat so much I want to cry.

No more though.

I am going on a fast, and thats final.

I'm back in the game. (Fuck fuck stupid me) No bitch, you want to be skinny skinny skinny! Ahhhhhhhhh (but you will be unhappy and will end up back in the hospital) SO BE IT THEN. Nothing will matter when I'm thin! (oh God...save me now)