2003-10-08 - 11:50 p.m.

Please don't take this as a drama queen entry...but I want to die. I have been crying all night. I don't know what to do. I can't take it anymore. Everything hurts. I'm so scared. I'm afraid of going out on my own. I'm afraid of not being successful in life. I'm afraid of never being thin enough. I'm just...afraid. ALways...afraid. Life doesn't interest me anymore. I have nothing to live for. My boy-friend dumped me tonight....School is going bad...nothing is going right...I have nothing to look forward too. I love my Mom so much, but I have to end this. I don't want to hurt her...but I can't hurt anymore.

Soo...Goodbye diaryland people. I am going to take a bottle of sleeping pills and sleep forever...

If I am not successful with my suicide attempt...I guess I will be in a mental hospital for a while. Either way doesn't matter...

Thank you all who supported me and befriended me here. I appreciate it. I may be back...I may not be. I guess that depends entirely on my body.

I love you.

Good-bye.

*Forever Ana's Child*

Fiona-Lynn