2003-09-27 - 11:56 a.m.

101 lbs today...I'm getting there I guess. Hardly ate anything yesterday. Don't want to eat anything ever again. I'm fasting this weekened so maybe I'll stop being so fuckin fat all the time. I'm so sick of this up and down up and down crap. I just want to reach my goal & stay there. I don't want to keep gaining, and losing. Food is all I think about. I don't think about school, I don't think about anything thats relatively important to other human beings....its just all about starving, losing weight, counting calories, and reaching goals.

Whatever though. Its my life. Its my body. When I starve myself till I'm dead it will be my fault. Uh huh...