2003-09-27 - 3:08 a.m.

I got my period. Just by saying that, you girls probably know I feel right now. Sick. Horrible. Digusting. Cramping. PLUS it means I am still noy skinny enough. Plus getting your period causes u to gain for a short while. So I am down to 104 lbs. How distgusting. I am going on a fast definitely this weekened, and maybe longer, who knows. I'm not the greatest at fasting, but we'll see how it goes.

By Friday of next week I must weigh 96 lbs. Even if I have to FAST ALL week to get there. I will get back into the 90's. I MUST. I'm just so fat and lazy...and ugly. I can't stand. I am probably not making much sense right now cause i took 2 sleeping pills and they are really kickin in. I will tell you how my fast went tomorrow :)