2003-07-17 - 9:37 p.m.

Today was another long boring day. This weekend I am going to stay with a friend in Drum Heller and I have promised myself I will not mess up this time. I think I will be gone till about Tuesday or Wedneday so hopefully I will be about 100 or less when I get back. The guy I am staying with wont make me eat because he has known about my E.D. for a long time. He has never forced me to do anything so I think I will be alright. DEAR GOD I HOPE...PLEASE LET ME HAVE A GOOD WEEK. I am so sick of being fat. I am so sick of weighing over 100 lbs. Its disgusting.

Today's cals:

1 cup of puffies 49 cals

I piece of toast w/jam 129 cals

1 piece of toast w/pb 150 cals

Tuna Caserole 250 cals

1 cup of puffies 49 cals

Oatmeal 137 cals

toast 90 cals

Total : 854 cals

Its weird...that is a lot of calories and yet I feel really light headed today. I feel so dizzy and sick. Meh. I eat too much. Damn me. I am going to cut back a lot. No more going over 600 cals. Thats my new rule. I'm such a fat slob. Blah...