2003-07-09 - 11:02 p.m.

So yah...200 calories down the drain. Yup. I have managed to fail, again. Stupid plans. I should just wing it, cause I never stick to my plans EVER. I didn't binge, but still...I am getting sick of setting goals and then not sticking to them. THIS WEEKENED I WILL THOUGH. Fasting for 2 days, oh boy! Can't wait. I am really happy that I have stuck to my diet though, I am very impressed with myself. Usually I give up, but NOT this time.

Anyway, today I've had:

Apple 70 cals

Chicken Noodle Soup 120 cals

Pea Soup 100 cals

More Pea Soup 100 cals (purged)

Oatmeal 137 cals

Piece of Bread W/Peanut butter 145

2 small Pieces of homemade carrot cake 50 cals (would have been more but I purged it until I was dry heaving)

Apple sauce 51

4 pickels 33 cals

TOTAL 704 calories (maybe a lil more/less)

Seems like a LOT when u look at it, but I get so hungry sometimes and have to nibble. I felt shaky today and rather funny again so I kept eating. My neck and feet and hands get numb...does that happen to anyone else? Hmmm...weird. But anyway, I am gonna see if I can excerise later on because I heard u lose a pound when u burn 3500 cals. Eek! I never do anything. But yah, still 101 lbs...maybe a difference tomorrow?