2003-07-09 - 2:46 p.m.

OK, maybe I was wrong about the plateau. I weighed 101 lbs this morning...I don't know how I feel about that. It feels not quite real, like I am not skinny enough to weigh that. Perhaps my scale is off? Hmmm...I don't want to get excited because my scale is a cheap $10 Walmart scale and I probably weigh like 120 lbs!!! Ok, maybe not...but still. I can't help but be worried. Oh, how I hope that is the right weight! Only a couple more pounds and I will be rid of the triple digits forever! Anyway, today I decided to do the 2, 4, 6 thing...and then fasting but I have already had about 200 calories today. I ate an apple and then my grandma made chicken noodle soup after I had planned not to eat till supper. GARR. She forced me. Got out the bowl and everything and I had to sit there and eat it. THEN, she went to the bathroom. I think I will just try to get out of supper, but I'm not sure if I can. Its so hard...but I will try. If I go a LITTLE over 200 thats ok right? Ack. Damn me. Anyway, there is a thing on Dr. Phill about anorexia so I'm going to watch that and maybe go on TF. More later.