2003-07-04 - 12:09 a.m.

Well, guess what I did after bitching and complaining about people who binge and purge? I BINGED...and worst of all...I only purged a couple times. The last, I dunno...4 or 5 things I ate I didn't even bother throwing up. Gaarrr. I can't even express to you what I'm feeling. I decided to play it cool, and allow myself to binge once a week. But there WILL be consequences to pay...I am going on a fast, that will be my punishment. A fast for three days. Because I probably set myself back a couple days. Damn I hate when I do this. At least it only happens every once in a while. So its 12 am right now, and so Monday at 12 am I will be done my three day fast. Can't be that hard right? I mean, I really have to take control of myself and show my body who's boss. I want people to read my diary and be inspired by me because of all the success I'm having. Please God, help me out here. Oh by the way, if anyone reads this diary PLEASE leave me a message and let me know that you exist. Honestly, I'm starting to think that no one ever reads it which makes me very sad. I think its reading worthy...maybe my opinion is biased. But anyway, Thanks a lot. I would really like some feedback, or even some ana buddies to talk to on messanger. If you want to contact me, just email me or something and we'll chat! Hehe. I'm not as mean as I sound. Gonna go now tho, lata..