2003-06-30 - 9:16 p.m.

Well, my day was blah. I feel kind of funny right now, and I'm not sure why. it can't be the restricting...its only been 4 days for crying out loud. I dunno, I just feel really tired which is unusual, cause I usually sleep all afternoon. I tried to do an aerobic excercise thing and I got tired after like half an hour. Usually I can do like three of them in a row without getting tired. Meh. I don't know whats with me today. Anyway...for food I had:

apple 40 cals

4 pieces of celery w/peanut butter 120

Sphagetti 350 cals

3/4 banana 90

1 1/2 cup of OJ 130

another plate of sphagetti (200) purged

2 handfuls of bran flakes 50 cals

Approx. 880 calories

GRRR I am very very mad at the moment. It didn't seem that much when I was planning it out. This is what was going through my mind: Well I need potassium, so I will have a banana. And then it was like, well I'm hungry so I will have some more sphagetti and then purge...and then...Bran flakes have hardly any calories so it will be ok...and...a glass of orange juice can't add up to much right? GRRR. Why am I such a sucker. I will just look at it as ANOTHER metabolism boost I guess. Anyway, tomorrow's plan:

400 cals...that is all I am going to do, because I have made plans with food before, and I never keep to them. Hopefully I'll do ok tomorrow, and maybe I'll look at scales when I go into town. If I do get a scale, it will be a cheap one, but its better than nothing. Oh, I have an obsession with peanut butter. I heard it makes your body think your not hungry, so I am keeping it in my diet every day. We'll see if it works I guess. LAter for now.